As mentioned before in my previous posts, I would want to share new experiences with you. I have never attended a bridal shower before. Not that none of my friends have gotten married, I just did not accommodate all the invitations I got.

So when one of my colleague/friend suggested they would be throwing a bridal shower party for one of our friend, I got excited. It would be a first time for me. Yes, I know, at my age,I should have been to so much party of this kind. But, I'd say that I am an amateur in this kind of partying.

I don't really know what to expect in a bridal shower party. Some say it could go wilder than a stag party, depending on how imaginative and creative the organizers are.

I was just hoping that at least it was something that I can handle. At my age, I was clueless about it. So, you got me all wrong. Sure I had my moments, but I never really partied wild.

So, the much awaited day came after endless nights of searching for the perfect entertainment. We got the venue booked at The Oriental Hotel Leyte  and got a loft-type beachfront room. Since the room was already expensive, we opted to just have something light and skip the heavy meal preparations.I would discover later on that pasta carbonara and tequila don't mix well. It left me feeling a bit "uncomfortable". :)

This was a must have. 

We decided to wear mask, to create the "mysteriosa" effect. Just kidding. Of course we donned those mask to hide our faces lest we do something stupid while the "entertainment" was going on. 


Sometimes hiding behind a mask can release all our inhibitions and can be liberating. This, at the very least gives you the anonymity you need in times like this. 

I remember my sister telling me that she once organized a bridal shower party and it turned out that the "entertainment" they got was an ex-boyfriend of one of the guests. Lol! Awkward moment! That would have been so embarrassing to everyone.

We started trying out the tequila around 7. Big mistake. By the time the rest of the guests arrived, we were midway through our bottle. The "main course" arrived at around 10, guess what? I was kinda tipsy but thick-faced enough to enjoy without inhibitions. Still sober to enjoy the games though.

The loft type beachfront room of The Oriental Hotel Leyte had two restrooms, perfect for a group of ten. Cozy bed. A welcoming sight to the sleepy.

Check out how comfortable and cozy the bed was.

Here's Josephine checking out the one place we can always go to for emergencies. LOL!

I cannot post pictures and I cannot do a tell-all on what really happened that night when we all got a little bit naughtier than we already are. We all promised that what happens in room 113 stays in room 113. Besides, I fell asleep, so there's really not much to tell. Haha!

At the end of the day, I realized that it is not how much you spend determines how happy you can be. Sometimes, all it takes are good friends, good laugh and naughty secrets you share and keep until someone goes crazy and tell the whole world of it.

In the midst of our busyness, there is one place where true happiness resides, in the heart of those who stays true to themselves, laugh heartily without pretenses and live life like there's no tomorrow.

Still keeping the faith,

In my previous post, I mentioned about not letting opportunities pass and this is one post that I want to share about me trying to live the life I want.

Last week, I was asked, actually, referred to by someone , to interview dignitaries of the Rotary Club as a part of the production package. The thought of doing that, giving live interviews as the host, wasn’t something that I really wanted although I have done live hosting before. I used to host on family member’s special occasions such as debuts and weddings, aside from also rendering a song or two. 

And, I have done opening acts, such as when a local Filipino artist , Rica Peralejo –Bonifacio (nee Regina Carla Peralejo) was hired by my company in Taiwan to entertain the overseas Filipino workers , our market. I don’t know what made me say yes, I think it was the honorarium I was promised that made me swallow my shyness and just go all out for it, embarrassment and all. Lol!

With Rica Peralejo Peralta

It turned out okay I guess, people would recognize me even two days after the concert and that was it. I returned to being a wannabe. But I got the perk of talking to her casually, have dinner with, share a conversation in the ladies room and accompany her to the market with her mom Alice, where she got some of her loot, except of course a set of MAC Cosmetics which my boss’ son obligingly bought it for her from Far Eastern Department Store after she pointed her finger and said, “ooh, I want that”. Whether it was taken out from her talent fee or not, I didn’t know.

Also, there was the re-opening of the FE21 Department Store in Hsinchu City, Taiwan. Again, my company was in cooperation with the marketing department of the department store chain, and so, who else would they ask to do the hosting? Yours truly, since I was the only naïve person there. I think they found me as the only person gullible enough to consent to doing it with a very minimal fee. At least I was paid this time. NT1,500.00, if my memory serves me right. Not bad for a wannabe. I just thought at that time that performing outside a department store with Starbucks as backdrop was cool! 

The other week, it was a mardi gras event, but I opted for a more neutral look, rather than go all-out in colors. I already handpicked a floral one-piece square pants (help! Fashion bloggers!) from Lemon Drops. I don’t know what the dress is called, but I changed it last minute with a black top and opted to wear slacks. It rained and I thought I might ruin the dress if I wear it because we were stationed outside.

Truth is, I really was at a loss of what to wear so I just opted for something I was comfortable with.

I was afraid my hair and makeup ( courtesy of Ms Annie of Cristina’s Salon) would smear the dress so a black top ensemble would be the right choice I guess. There were other guests who were not in mardi gras get-up anyway.

As my first time doing a live interview, I was nervous at first, almost forgetting my questions and suddenly doubting if I made the right list of questions to ask.  I am so honored and humbled by my interview with the Rotary Club’s District Governor Ed Chiongbian. He was the most accommodating and respectable person I have ever met at his level.

And so, that is the first step I took into living the life I want, the life in the total opposite of what my life had been for the past 5 years. I know there are other things that I can do and I am very much willing to do them one by one if the opportunity arises. Or better yet, I’ll create the opportunities.

With 8tv proprietor/eneral manager and cameraman.

Still keeping the faith,

This is where the past ends and the future begins.

I have taken steps to change my beliefs, and the way I perceive life.

I have turned the page. A new chapter begins.

I thank God for each and every pain, every tear, every laughter and every lesson that He shown me, to manifest His love for me.

Through the years, I discovered who I am. 

I am whom God created me to be. 

I am unique. 

I am beautiful, though I have scars. 

Never perfect. 

I am flawed. 

I am vulnerable.

I am human.

I am loved. 

I have lived and I've loved.

I've laughed and I've cried.

I have died.

I've buried my past.

I am a phoenix.

I rise above the ashes.

I am healed.

And I claim all the best things to happen to me as my journey continues.

I'd like to share a song that has been an all-time favorite for me. I love this song because of its message.

Love indeed heals everything.

This is me, keeping the faith,

Sometimes it’s hard for me to write continuously about the events in my life. Sometimes, I get this feeling of uncertainty, of being unsure if people are still getting inspired with what I say. Sometimes, I get the feeling that people may think I am being egoistic, trying to write so much about myself, myself and myself.

But I guess this is what blogging is all about. It’s about expressing yourself in another way. My co-blogger and friend Apple of An Apple A Day once asked me in a private conversation what challenges I encounter in a blog of my genre. I have to add something to my reply to her. 

Aside from being careful with words that I use, because bloggers in my genre talks about sensitive topics most of the time, we do not want to hurt or come on to people in a negative way. I am also aware that people would one day somehow get tired of my life’s story. 

The biggest challenge would always be to think before blogging, will my post inspire this time or not?  Will people still care with what’s happening in my life right now?

I know the answer to that. There will come a time when people would eventually grow tired of reading the same things over and over again. And when the time comes that I have stopped inspiring people with what I do, I guess that’s the time I have to conclude my blog, or else , reformat if I want to continue blogging.

Let go.

I’ve been blogging since 2008. My life has been an open book. People who read my blog have at least a share of my ups and downs. And I thank each and every one of you who laughed and cried with me through each happy and painful moments in my life. There’s been so much written, so many experiences shared, so many laughter resonated and many tears shed. And the thought that people can relate or at least empathize with every victory I share, that just inspire me to continue blogging as well.

For this post, I am officially closing that chapter in my life, as we all must go on and leave the past behind. I may still have some unfinished business (like the forgiveness thing), I guess the right time will come eventually, I don’t need to pressure myself into this.

Move on.

I just feel so free right now!  It feels like a veil has been lifted and now I can see the brightness tomorrow will bring. I realized that writing the same posts, with the same bitterness, anger and resentment, I was tying myself with my past. 

Maybe I wasn’t really ready to let go of it, holding on to it tightly, because I would also lose the familiar place, the familiar feeling of having those emotions. I got so comfortable in that space and I dreaded getting out of my comfort zone. I am scared of feeling new feelings.

Just Live.

Yes, I will continue to live. The past is the past which cannot be undone. Tonight is a turning point for me, a moment which I know I won’t regret. Tonight, I continue to live. Just live. I don’t want a mediocre life. I want more from life. I want to live life to the fullest. 

I’ll catch every opportunity life throws at me. I still want that cooking show. And I still want to be a motivational speaker. For as long as I don’t forget where I’ve come from,  take care of the children and of their future and not step on somebody to get what I want, then I know I’m on the right track. 

I will be okay.

Keeping the faith,

Last week was a frenzy for me. The disadvantage of having multiple jobs is that when everything has to demand more of your time at exactly the same moment,time management skills would not be of much help. As much as I don't want to, I have to decline a job offer which I initially applied for, something that would help hone my writing skills. I would have accepted it even though the pay was not I expected because of the experience in writing content that I love to do was enough for me to consider it. But circumstances did not allow it, so I let it pass.

I am glad though, that both activities and events I've been busy the whole week turned out better than I expected. Not perfect, not the best I could do, but okay enough to be called a success. I was told by one of my bosses that multiple jobs can be tough, but I tried doing it anyway.

So, tonight, I don't want to do anything but relax. Blogging is one way of relaxing for me, a stress-reliever too. And I really don't have any particular topic planned or scheduled to blog about, so anything goes. Sometimes it is liberating to just free your mind and write down whatever it is that comes to mind.

I, too,like the rest of you guys can get relaxation from music, and so off I went searching for some music that soothes my soul. I'm telling you I have a  somewhat eccentric taste in music. Sure I love listening to boy bands once in a while, or the ballads crooners like Michael Buble does, but what I really dig is the kind of music that transcends into the deepest corners of my soul. I love a different kind of music genre.

New age music.  In my humble opinion, it is really difficult to have a distinguishing factor for this kind of music, since this is a combination of different music genre. In 2000, I bought myself a CD which was called "Voyage Essential World Beat Collection". From the moment I heard it, I was hooked. Initially, I bought it because of the song Sadeness by Enigma, although I already had 2 of their albums. I really liked their music, should I say it's somewhat "orgasmic"? :) Return to Innocence is something that would make Christian Grey (Fifty Shades of Grey) delirious! Yes, I read it, so what? Click on the link if you want to read it. It's gonna be shown in theaters soon anyway. Mommy porn? Lol!

I could not find that cd anymore including some of my cd collection because I have been moving from one place to another for the last 5 years. Fortunately, YouTube is such an angel for filling out missing collections and I found one channel that has all the songs.

Every song is my favorite, but one triggered my curiosity. I heard of this first in 1995 and I fell in love with the strong vocals and the passion and emotions of the song. It's a Chinese song called "Sister Drum" performed by Dadawa. If you can understand the story behind the song, you'll understand what I am talking about.

In Ancient Tibet, they had this ritual of sacrificing virgins to the Lama (their high priest). The virgin would then be skinned and the skin would be used in making drums (according to one translation done by one commenter on Youtube). The story in the song is that the singer lost her sister who was a human sacrifice. Every day it was as if she could hear her calling every time she hears the drums. This song is a lamentation of a girl who lost her sister. So sad really. More so if you listen to the song.

Of course I love Enya, and Celtic Woman, Gregorian Monks (Gregorian Chants), Kitaro and of course Enigma. As I said earlier, Enigma (who's lead is Michael Cretu, the one who popularized the song Love Me) have the type of songs that are for me erotic. Erotic would be the right word rather than "orgasmic", but both leads to the same thing anyway.

On the lighter side, I also would like to share some of my other favorite chillaxing music.

Joe Hisiashi - Summer

Sunchyme by Dario G. (video included in the Voyage Album)

And my favorite of all :

SKY by Faye Wong (I just love her in this song! Yes, this too is an old one) Watch this one in HD and listening to the song will just free your mind from worries! 

So there, I still have a lot of music (this is what I call real music) to share, but I might take up a lot of your time. I realized, I just revealed so much about how old I really am, right? LoL! 

But, music keeps the soul forever young ! 

Keeping the faith,

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