I know you may think that this is a negative post, but I promise you it's not. This is the most positive thing that ever happened this week in the midst of the chaos of Christmas rush.

We know that we can actually help people with our experiences, but I never thought of it in the same way I thought it should. Let me share what happened this week.

As I was reading through my Facebook friends' posts,yes, I do read through my friends' posts, so I would immediately know if someone wrote negatively against me. :) But that day, I was extremely grateful that I did not felt lazy and antagonous towards every post I read. As I scrolled down, a post from one of my acquaintances caught my eye and it made an instant connection with me. I can't classify her as a friend yet since there were only a couple of times we talked, during the recognition day at my daughter's school and during the educational tour.


She posted something like " Lord, forgive me, I am a sinner. I want to die". Usually, when I see posts like that, I always thought that this person just needed something to catch attention. But, I felt that somehow it was a real cry for help. I viewed her page to check what else she may have posted and true enough, there were other posts that were similar to this. Without thinking twice, I sent her a private message which she didn't reply to until late in the evening. In my message, I gave her my cellphone number just in case she really needed someone to talk to badly.

I got an answer from her in the evening and I sent her an instant reply. We chatted and just like my experiences, she too suffered from depression, which almost send her to the brink of losing her sanity  which is why she has to leave her work abroad. She came home without a memory of what really happened during the time the worst of the situation got her.

She said she was under medication and have to see a psychiatrist once a month to monitor her psychological health. I fully understand her, and in my first message, I already told her that I once committed suicide and it was because of depression. And it wasn't worth it. Because of this, she was able to open up to me about her mental state because she knew I would understand.

I listened to her, and I gave my advices. I gave her the link to my blogs, where I wrote my personal experiences including what contributed to my depression. I also offered to pray for her personally.

Relaying my ordeal is just like going back to the situation again and again, but I opted to tell my story because I know that it will mean a lot to her and probably would make a difference. I hope it makes a difference.

For people who are going through some pain and issues in their lives, always remember that nothing just happens. Everything happens for a reason. Now I know why I got seated next to her during the recognition day and why I also got to hang with her and her daughter all throughout the 8 hour educational tour. Our daughters are not even classmates.

It would just help a lot if our government will just include mental health into their government programs. Mental health is just as important as someone's physical health. If and when governments all over the world will give importance on taking care of the mental state of their constituents, then nervous breakdowns, depression, anxiety would somehow be lessened and avoided. And maybe we could have prevented mass shootings of children which could only come from the mind of a disturbed person.

My life, the past and the present, is now an open book, a book that anybody can read and learn. I don't mind people judging me based on what they will read in my testimonies, but I care more for the people who will learn from it.

And if she gets past on where she is right now, then I know that the pain that I had in my life, became someone else's gain, in the sense that she gained something from reading and learning from my experiences. Paying forward, the pain that she had in her life, will surely one day become another's gain. And that thought is just comforting.

Keep the faith,

Mei

I was put incharge of making a slideshow presentation, sort of a "walk down memory lane " kind of stuff. I actually was at a loss about what to make of. I wanted to make a good story, not just flash every photo that I got from batchmates. I want it to be special. And so, I finally made up a good story. I hope the rest of the batch likes it.


Prior to showing it, I have made a "teaser" which in no way reflect or even give the slightest hint of what to expect in my video presentation during the reunion night. But anyway, I wanted to give them a glimpse of what I can do. So, here it is and watch...

Recently, I found myself caught up in the world of photo editing. Taking pictures and enhancing it has never been so exciting for me. Now I know why Instagram and it's filters have gained popularity. It is quite addicting. And it gives such a high kind of feeling.

Since I am not a professional photographer or a photo editor, I try to make use of what I can find over the internet. There are a few good ones like Rollip.com, PicMonkey.com, Pixlr-o-matic , Pixlr editor and Instant Retro. PicMonkey is my favorite though, because it gives me a lot more options. I have learned a technique to use all these resources to get a good enhanced photo. I tried editing photos in PicMonkey, filter it with Rollip.com or Instant Retro, and finally use PicMonkey to enhance the lay-out. PicMonkey has different lay-outs with different styles. I like the Facebook cover, since the size is already the correct size for the Facebook cover photo. I find it more handy to use this as I already have the idea on how the photo would look like in the page.

I also like the Pinter-esty layout which is tailor made for Pinterest.

Let me share some of my photo experiments.







These photos are what I did to the work I was on, and my boss just loved it!



The two other pictures are what I made for my personal use only. :)

What can be more satisfying than seeing pictures that reflects how you feel inside? None i think.

Yes! I've got my mojo back on. I now have a zest for life once more!

It has been quite some time whn I last felt alive and it feels so great to feel vibrant once more. Many people have noticed the big change in me and some are speculating that I may be having a "secret affair". No, no, no. Now, for the first time in my life, I can finally say that I feel complete even without a man in my life.

I can sometimes get quite touchy when issues about being single at this point in my life is brought up. Yes, being single with kids is tough. But this is my choice, a choice that I carefully thought about before doing what other people think was the stupidest thing I ever did.

My high school reunion is in a few more days, and I am getting ready for it. As one of the organizers, I was able to reconnect with the teenage me. I totally forgot how it feels like to be young. I lost my teenage years so fast, motherhood came knocking at 18 for me. I did not get to experience the teenage dream, so to speak. And so, during this reunion, I plan to make the most of it and enjoy every minute of it.


The picture above shows how I looked like 20 years ago and how I look like now. There isn't much difference, really. This is when I realized that I could actually go back to the times that I was not able to enjoy.

It could really be more different now. As I aged and matured, I have extended my limitations. I mean, after all, I'm a grown up now. I can do anything I want as long as I don't compromise the respect and trust of my children.




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