Booked for a day tour at Stilts. Yes, Stilts at Calatagan, Batangas, also known as the Maldives of the Philippines, or so they say, because of the beautiful floating cottages.

It's great to getaway from all the busyness and hustle of our daily life. We were supposed to book on February 12, just in time for my mom's birthday and an advance celebration for my daughter's birthday too. But, time was tight, there were still things we need to comply with the resort. And one of that needs at least a week considering our busy schedules, like getting a health certificate from the local municipal health center for my nephew, who was the only one unvaccinated.


Stilts has many beaches. One of the most private was Destiny beach. It has only 3 cabanas meaning, only 3 families or group will be using the beach. But, this was the area for water activities.


So we got a booking at Destiny Beach, it was the only available location for day tours when I booked 2 weeks earlier. At Alert Level 2, we were still required to present our vaccination cards and submit a health declaration form for the fully vaccinated and a health certificate for the child who are not vaccinated. 


On the way, there's a military checkpoint upon entry at Calatagan, but they just ask where you are going. You should expect heavy traffic when you reach that area especially on weekends. After arriving the resort, you will be asked to go to a holding place where attendance and temperatures will be checked. 


This is also your time to go to the front desk to settle any balance from your initial deposit. After payment, you will be given a key to your cabana's cabinet where you can keep your valuables inside and color-coded wrist bands. 


You will also be informed about the places where you can go within the resort. For day tour guests, you are not allowed to into the cottages, but the beach front and the infinity pool is available for everybody. 


How do they control guests from going into restricted areas? Guests are required to wear the color-coded wristbands to distinguish day tour guests and which beach you are booked at. 


There is a shuttle that will take you anywhere in the resort. Upon check in, you are given a map with all the markings of which places you are allowed to go to. So the beachfront is available for everybody. You can go to the other beaches by walking or using the free shuttle. You are also allowed to use the infinity pool and its amenities. 


The cottages for overnight guests, especially the floating cottages are off-limits to day tour guests. Water activities and ATV are available for rent. 

We decided to pay the corkage fee so we can bring food. There were 15 of us so buying food from their restaurant would be very expensive. The corkage fee for food is 200 per head. We were surprised that it was also consumable so you can order from the restaurant a food's worth the corkage you paid. 


So for us, we paid 3K for the corkage and we use that to buy additional food. 


It's so nice to be able to have some quiet moment, even just for a few moments, just to recharge your body and spirit. My family needed it, my kids especially, because the last two years during the pandemic was tough on them. This one day getaway was a very much needed respite from our redundant and semi-boring lives.




 For more information about Stilts Calatagan just visit their website at





Since it is just a few days after Martin Luther King, Jr. Day, because of a writing project, I needed to read on some of MLK Jr.'s speeches.  I was inspired about his "I have a Dream" speech and the anaphora which showed much of his passion.


I am no MLKjr, but I have my own version of I Have a Dream.  It's not a speech but mainly what is in my thoughts as my birthday comes to an end. A year older, I realized that I have hold off on acting on my dreams and use "work" as an excuse. So here goes.


I have a dream. (channeling MLKjr)

I dream to open a shelter for women who are victims of domestic abuse where they will learn how to stand up on their own, be empowered, earn and start a new life; a place where they can get free legal assistance and have counselors who will walk them through the processes. The legal process itself is very overwhelming, sometimes the people who are supposed to help will just send you from office to office.

One of the reasons why women in very abusive relationship stay with their spouses or partners is because they don't know what to do and where to go. Sometimes they have the courage to leave, but they soon go back after a couple of days. Why? Because they don't have the resources to raise their children and codependency.

If you watched the movie "Maid" on Netflix, you'd understand what I mean. But more than the movie, I experienced this myself. And as I think about the last 10 yrs, I realized that maybe, just maybe this is why I had to experience those, so that I can help others who are experiencing what I had before. You'd understand why if you back read my blog posts in 2010-2014.

I have always had this thought for years, even before I've watched "Maid", especially when I see women and children on the streets, but I push it to the back of my mind because who am I to have this dream? I had this nagging at me once again when I saw a woman and her kids lying on the ground with their bags beside them. 

It's scary, because you could face the wrath of the abusive spouses. And thinking about funding, where do I get that. This is an advocacy and advocacy do not work without funds. 

I have a dream.

I dream that women in distress can easily get help from authorities without having to go to the station like an app where they can download, click on a number and authorities are alerted without the abuser knowing. I dream of an app that has the capability of locating the nearest Women's Desk and shelter they can go to. 
I have a dream to have at least one privately run shelters in every city. Yes there is the local DSWD but they are already up to their necks with other concerns. If you've been to some night care facilities, you'd feel as if you are in jail, which should not be the case because you are the victim here. 

Delinquent juveniles and rescued women in distress and their children are placed in a room where there are actual bars like a prison cell. Maybe not in all, but I can say it is so because I've been in one.

I dream of a shelter where women and children will feel safe and as if in their own homes. 

I know that this takes a lot of planning, work and heart. Will I have the energy to make this come into fruition?

Now that I set this out here, maybe the Universe will help me make this a reality.  

Happy 46th Birthday to Me! 




Watching the Lake House on HBO makes me want to believe in love again, and inspired me to write!

I love watching movies, especially ones that are about love (and with Keanu in it). The Lake House is not a romcom, in fact, there's no part in that movie that would make you laugh. It's a lonely story. The characters are both lonely people who are looking for love. The entire mood of the movie is actually somewhat kind of sad, but the magic of it is - it makes you believe and fall in love again. What it is -is actually a story about how love transcends time.


I'm someone who used to believe in love, romantic love anyway, but over the years, I have learned to suppress any feelings of anything that is somewhere closer to love. Maybe I just had my heart broken too many times that I have this fear of giving away a part of me to someone again. After being a single mom, it took me 5 long years to finally be able to trust a man again. And after 3 years, I lost it again. Turns out I was the only one in it. It was more of a "situationship" than a relationship. So many secrets, so many lies. But this time, while the betrayal and confusion was more intense than my first 2 serious relationships, I didn't cry. I couldn't. How can I cry for something that wasn't real anyway? How can I grieve for a lost relationship when I never had one?

I may not have grieved about that loss but it doesn't mean it didn't scar me in any way. Yes, I still had my heart broken, but I know how to handle it this time. This is the first time I am writing about it anyway. Maybe I've tried to avoid confronting my feelings, maybe not. I don't know, I just don't feel anything. It's not because I didn't have anyone wanting to be with me, there were two actually, both younger than me. I avoid the idea of me being with a man way younger than me. The father of my children actually is 2 years younger than me, but these two men are 6-7 years younger. Maybe I just wanted to feel being wanted again, but not wanting the relationship thing at all. I am sorry if I somehow led them on. I thought I was ready, but I wasn't.

Watching The Lake House has broken that wall I've built around my self. I kept myself hidden for a long time, it's been 2 years already since I ended it. Maybe it's the right time now. I've always avoided confronting my feelings maybe because I still wanted to preserve some of the memories. But I can't stay stoic and unfeeling all the time. At one point, I have to break so I can make myself whole again.

And so today marks that day when I will be open to everything new in my life. 

  • I am opening myself to new experiences, to new relationships, new adventures.
  • I am opening myself to love in the way I wanted it to be.
  • I am opening myself to people and believe that age is just a number, and that I cannot deny myself of the happiness someone is willing to give me, no matter how much the age difference.
  • I am opening myself to believing more that I deserve love in the way that love is supposed to be.
  • I am opening myself to dreaming again the good dreams for myself and my children.


 I don't really make resolutions, and this isn't one, but this is going to be my point of reference at the end of the year to see how much I will grow in the love and relationship department.

I'm setting myself with high expectations. You can help me by wishing me luck and sending some prayers for me and my kids.





Yep, you read that right. 


No, I didn’t meet with Shonda. I mean, who am I? No big personality in the world of writing has ever talked to me. Not yet.


I watched Oprah’s interview with Shonda Rhimes on Super Soul Sunday last night on YouTube. It’s about a month old, one which I haven’t watched yet. Watching it just rekindled the fire I had for writing. There were a lot of revelations in that video that pushed me to write now.


If you have no idea who Shonda Rhimes is, wait…what? Where’ve you been? Shonda Lynn Rhimes is the creator of all these wonderful television shows that you’ve probably binge-watched. Grey’s Anatomy, Private Practice, Scandal, How to Get Away with Murder, and many others.


It’s been a while since I wrote in this space and I missed it. I had this blog, this space for quite some time, and many times I’ve wanted to delete this, but I just didn’t have the heart and strength to do so. Many bloggers I know have evolved into what they’re currently doing now, e-commerce or, have transitioned into coaching. They deleted their blogs or just totally abandoned them because they don’t resonate with it anymore. It sort of somewhat symbolized their transformation or the shedding of their old self. 


I could not do the same.


This space has always been my sacred, safe space. I’ve been through a lot of transformations, and that was mostly recorded in this blog. I think it is one of the reasons why I can’t forget about this, it is an actual record of events in my life.


In this space, I don’t write just for the sake of writing. I wrote things that were very personal to me. I wrote about my heartbreaks, my battle with depression, and my happiness. This isn’t just a blog. This is a testimony of my life. 


Here, I am not afraid of being judged. This is one space where I can vent my heart out, put my thoughts on something “tangible” or on a medium where I can read them. My thoughts can race as fast as a speeding horse and I can’t keep track of them sometimes. And this space, this blog, is one of the spaces where I can somehow grasp some of the thoughts that run inside my brain.


Recently, I developed envy for others who have the gift or words or wisdom. I always am in awe of the clients that I worked with. I’ve worked with different kinds of coaches, copywriters, transformational coaches, financial and personal development coaches and they all seemed to be very good at conveying their message through writing. They all have the gift of gab (colloquially speaking) and they easily can find the words to write down what their soul wanted to say.


I wanted so much to be like them. I love it more when they can convert their wisdom into a program or a course where they can pass on that knowledge. I have tried it so much that I just ended up being frustrated. 

But then I realized maybe that isn’t for me. I know I can write better than I can speak. And this space, this blog is where I put on all the wisdom that I have gained throughout all the experiences I had in my 44 years of existence. 

There are contents here that I am astonished. Rereading them, I felt like I wasn’t the one who wrote it. Does it make any sense to you? It was as if somebody else had written it because I could not remember the time I wrote it. I know it was me, I just don’t remember the exact moments when I did. 


Maybe I was in a trance when I wrote it or under some spell? Or maybe I was just so filled with this inspiration to write that I became so oblivious to what was happening at that moment. Maybe that explained why I can’t remember a lot.

In the interview, I remember how Shonda described what she felt or how it was when she was writing. To paraphrase, she said that it was almost like doing spiritual practice. When she puts on her headphones, it meant that she would be in that sacred space of writing and sometimes she could just write something and forget time. 


I get that. It’s something else to be in that writing and creative space where time just flew by and poof, you’re done. And it’s something that I want to be able to do again. To just get lost in my thoughts and write away.


I miss the adrenalin rush, the racing of my pulse every time I hit publish on a blog post I wrote. I don’t even know if anybody reads my blog but I don’t care. There is always this feeling of elation and success and satisfaction of being able to hit publish on every blog post I write in my blog. 

This is not to say that I have stopped writing. I still write content for clients but it’s different than writing something you want to. Writing for clients has these guidelines you need to follow, keywords, number of words, tone, etc.


But it’s not me. I am writing in my client’s voice. I don’t have that freedom of expression. I know I write pretty damn good but it just isn’t me. I can’t put my voice to things that I write for my clients and sometimes it can get exhausting. Don’t get me wrong, I do love my job, but if you’re a content writer, you’d understand where I am coming from.

Creating content for others for money is somewhat starting to take a toll on me. And that’s why I am thankful I was able to watch that interview with Oprah because it somehow showed me the beauty of writing again. Writing in a way that is not confined to certain specific requirements is total freedom.

So how did Shonda Rhimes made me want to write again? 


It’s the passion she has for writing, for creating this content that’s a product of her imagination. She can express what she can’t do in real life in the characters that she created. And she’s not afraid of being criticized for what she wrote. 


Heck, she even had Mc Dreamy’s character die in Grey’s Anatomy even though people were still in love with the character. When Oprah asked her why she killed that character, she said there was no other way to do it for the story to become as real as it can be. Real love can only have that feeling of forever when one of the couples dies. 

In reality, it can never be truer than that!


So, do I have an agenda to write now?




I just wanted to do something that I have been neglecting for a long time. I am a master procrastinator at doing something personal, like writing for my blog. 

I want to start writing again for my development. I still want to improve my writing skills. I know there is a lot of room for improvement for me in that field. So, because of what Shonda inspired me to do, starting today, I will make it a habit of writing one blog post a week. 


So please help me be held accountable for this, follow my blog, and remind me if I slack. 






I am beauty.
I am love.
I am feminine power.
I am goddess.
I am seduction.

I am woman.
I am me.

I am enough.
I am more than enough.
I will always be enough.
I am me.

I am grateful.
I am happy.
I am loved.
I am blessed.

As  I was lying on my back listening to a full moon meditation, I wasn't meditating yet, but just listening to it, I had these words come out from my mouth. It was as if my mouth had a mind of its own and the words just continued to flow. And I was surprised because I remembered them vividly as I wrote it down in my journal. I used to have downloads or thoughts/ideas in my mind randomly and as soon as I wanted to write it down, I would forget about it. That's why I always make sure that I have a pen and a notebook beside me all the time, so that whenever I have these downloads, I can immediately write them down.

I have always been fascinated about the feminine energy, because for me, I think I might have forgotten about how it works. I know I have blogged a lot about unleashing the feminine energy lately in the past year because it is something that I wanted to explore more into. I would have periods where I felt I am in my feminine energy, although not fully, but then after a few weeks or months, I would then slip back into my masculine energy. And it is exhausting. I know I am not fully in alignment with my truest self yet because I can still feel a lot of lack in my life. 

A week from now, I will start with my coaching sessions with a transformational coach . The program is called The Abundant Feminine. I have always seen her name in my suggested friends in Facebook because we have a lot of mutual Facebook friends. But I really didn't sent her a friend request, because I don't do it to random people. But I have always been fascinated with her work.

One of my colleagues had a coaching session with her, maybe it was a different one, but I saw some positive changes in her life. As someone who is actually a Certified Life Coach (I haven't practiced it yet), I saw the patterns. And in one of our conversations, she did mention it. But the programs were expensive for me, so I didn't really enrolled because it wasn't a priority for me at that time.

Fast forward to a week ago, I saw that she had opened her course on The Abundant Feminine and I really wanted to join this. Because people are more generous in this time of a pandemic, she offered the coaching program to a "pay what you can" type of payment method . I did waited for another week before finally signing up. And I am also in this pandemic effect of being productive by learning new skills. This is going to be the third course I'd taken on since the enhanced community quarantine started in the Philippines (2 I've already finished and am now certified) . And because, why not? It's not a bad thing to be productive in difficult times.

Coaching will start in a matter of days and I plan to chronicle each progress I maek. Who knows, maybe you'd see a more feminine version of me in the next months to come.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you."

Do these words seem familiar to you? I know and we use them everyday of our lives. But did you know that this a very powerful prayer that you can use to heal yourself and others. You don't have to touch others to heal them but to just say the prayer to yourself AND accepting responsibility of the situation can heal and change the way a situation is or how a person is treating you.

Why take responsibility when it isn't really your fault? Have you heard of generational curse? It works something similar to that. The dynamics is similar to that. Everything that is happening to us in the present is a result of our ancestors' actions. In other words, if I may say , 'karma' if you believe in that.

The things that you are experiencing right now, is something that your ancestors had done in the past. So in accepting responsibility for the situation, and asking for forgiveness for that, you are able to change the dynamics of the present situation you are in.

I know this sounds kind of woowoo but this is an ancient Hawaiian prayer. The person who re-introduced this to the world was Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len , the doctor who cured every patient in the criminally insane ward of a Hawaii`i State Hospital without even seeing them personally. He just worked on their patient's records with Hooponopono and the patients just became calm. Dr. Hew Len was a student of Morrnah Nalamaku Simeona, who was recognized as a kahuna lapaʻau in Hawaiʻi and taught her updated version of hoʻoponopono throughout the United States, Asia, and Europe.

There are 2 significant Hooponopono practitioners that worked closely with Dr. Hew Len, Dr. Joe Vitale and Mabel Katz. I took the Hoonopono certification with Dr. Joe Vitale. 

So how do you use the prayer? There are four steps :

  1. Step 1: Repentance – JUST SAY: I'M SORRY. ...
  2. Step 2: Ask Forgiveness – SAY: PLEASE FORGIVE ME. ...
  3. Step 3: Gratitude – SAY: THANK YOU. ...
  4. Step 4: Love – SAY: I LOVE YOU.
This is what you call a cleansing. Dr. Hew Len said that we need to be cleansing all the time. And to do that in a faster way is to just recite " I'm sorry, please forgive me. Thank you, I love you." over and over again. Before you do something that's very important to you, for example, appeasing a person's anger towards you, you can start cleansing.You don't have to chant this to them, or say it in their face. You can just do it on your own. Dr. Hew Len would cleanse 4x before he would go and talk to someone. 

There are other things about Ho'oponopono than just the prayer. There are tools that you can use to cleanse like the blue solar water. But that needs another whole new post.

I would vouch for the effectivity of this prayer 100%. If you do it the right way, you will find the peace you've wanted for so long.

 If you want to know more about how to use Ho'oponopono in your daily life, check out Mabel Katz.

If you've always believed in the Law of Attraction, you'd know something about abundance and manifestations. And I do, I've been studying LOA for quite sometime now and I can say that I did manifested some things in my life, whether unknowingly or intentionally.

Ever since I read The Secret , I've been hooked and I was adamant to know what the real secret to manifesting your desires was, how it worked, why some say that it didn't worked for them or like they were missing a piece of information about how to manifest the right way. I want to expound and write more about this in a separate post. 

So back to the Abundance prayer, I found this online. A little disclaimer: THIS IS NOT MINE. And if the other bloggers or write-ups said about this prayer, it's from an anonymous source. I tried googling for the real author so I can give proper credits, but I had no luck. So if you might know, please do let me know.

Having the prayer is one thing, using it is another thing. How do you use it? The abundance prayer is not your ordinary type of prayer. In the prayer, you are already acknowledging that you are in an abundant state. When you say this prayer, you are not asking from a place of scarcity, but from a place of abundance. And that abundance comes from God.

I believe that when I started using this, it gave me a different perspective on prayer. The traditional or the old way that I would pray, and I know most of you still do it, is to beg. When you pray the Abundance Prayer, you are not begging, but actually affirming that you are abundant, and that you are calling forth the abundance that is in God.

This prayer is not selfish, because at the end of the prayer, you are also affirming that everyone receives that same goodness that you received.  How many times have we prayed in the past that we really did not think about the rest of the world? Sometimes we get so engrossed with our own needs that we forgot to ask for the same for our brethren. 

I say it twice a day, one in the morning and one in the evening. I think there's no harm in incorporating this to your prayer time/ritual. Just make sure that you are praying with the right emotions. 

It's easier and faster to manifest your desires when you are in your highest vibration. So set yourself into the highest frequency, and then say your prayers.

So, here is the Abundance prayer.   I also created this in a downloadable/printable pdf form, you can put it up on your wall. Get it here it's free.

From The Light of God that I Am. 
From The Love of God that I Am. 
From The Power of God that I Am. 
From The Heart of God that I Am.

I decree:

I dwell in the midst of infinite abundance. The abundance of God is my infinite source. The river of life never stops flowing. It flows through me into lavish expression.  Good comes to me through unexpected avenues and God works in a myriad of ways to bless me.  I now open my mind to receive my good.  Nothing is too good to be true. Nothing is too wonderful to have happen.  With God as my source, nothing amazes me.  I am not burdened by thoughts of past or future. One is gone. The other is yet to come.  
By the power of my belief, coupled with my purposeful, fearless actions and my deep rapport with God, my future is created and my abundance made manifest.  I ask and accept that I am lifted in this and every moment into higher truth. My mind is quiet.  From this day forward I give freely and fearlessly into life and life gives back to me with magnificent increase.  Blessings come in expected and unexpected ways. God provides for me in wondrous ways.  I AM indeed grateful. And I let it be so. 
I wish the same for the goodness of all. 
                                                                                                                   - Author unknown

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